Sunday, September 22, 2013

Knowing

I don't know how to not think about this all the time.

I don't know how to stop the loop of that horrible moment from playing in my head.

I don't know how to move forward.

I don't know how I can do this all over again.

I don't know how to start this process again.

I don't know if I can.

I don't know how my life can still move forward without this baby.

I don't know how my spirit will ever recover

I just don't know.
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8 comments:

  1. Love Bomb12:09 PM

    All I can think of is....courage. That's what it takes to move forward. Think of yourself six months from now, a year from now. Picture that girl surviving and possibly even having a baby and all that life could hold a year from now. And then you can start walking in that direction.

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  2. Unknown12:46 PM

    You can do this. I know you can. I mean, what choice do you have? You have to move forward, and you will. You'll never forget, and the pain will never completely go away, but it will ease, and you will recover. Allow yourself to grieve and don't push yourself too hard, but know that day by day, it will start to get a little bit easier. Lots of hugs to you.

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  3. ChickinNH2:31 PM

    Aww Sun...I'm sending you strength and peace and a big huge hug.

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  4. Unknown3:23 PM

    I am sorry Sun.
    Sending you huge hugs and lots of love and strength.

    (tigger)

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  5. L3:42 AM

    (((Hugs!!))) I wish there was an answer that we could give you. I wish there was anyway to make the pain go away.

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  6. doodmama10:18 AM

    So sorry sweetie! ***Hugs***

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  7. Nicole @ The Kavanaugh Report6:22 AM

    ((hugs)) It's ok to not know. That's what I've learned. But, give yourself time, do what you need to right now. And, I promise, it will get easier. Easier to breathe, easier to sleep, easier to think about trying again. But, I don't know how to get past the pain, I'm not sure you do, but you certainly learn to live with it.

    ((Huge hugs)) I'm so sorry you are going through this. Part of me thinks that maybe we live near each other (maybe I'm making that up), and I know I'm a creepy-internet-TB person, but I promise I'm not a serial killer, and if you want someone to get coffee with and listen, I'm here.

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