This journey is making me bitchy.
I have no excuse. It's true. I am bitchy lately.
I'm grumpy at work. I love what I do. I love teaching those kiddos to love math and love learning. But lately my heart isn't in it. My lessons are boring. I'm boring. I know I'm not giving my students my best. My head is off doing it's own thing.
The other day at a department meeting, we were discussing ways of grading tests and how we wanted to adjust our upcoming test (we're not teaching all sections of that unit). I voiced my opinion, the meeting ended, no big deal. But later, when I was driving home, one of my friends in the department called me and asked what was up. Apparently after I left the meeting a couple people were talking about how I was rather harsh and you could cut the tension with a knife.
Oops. Sometimes I think I define "resting bitchy face". And apparently I have no idea when I'm letting my grump rage.
The post is a weird ramble of thoughts. I guess all I'm saying is that IF and a loss has changed me. And not for the better. I need to get it under control.
Lets be bitchy together! MUAH!!!
ReplyDelete{{hug}} I know exactly what you mean... I usually take so much pride in everything that I do, especially my teaching job. These days, it is so hard to put on my happy face... I just feel like I'm faking it all the time. It breaks my heart that the kids are so excited to come to band (I teach elementary band) and I'm a sour puss on the inside. I feel like I'm putting all of my energy into acting enthusiastic in front of them, when they leave, I'm just exhausted.
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