Pity Party For One

I seriously didn't think a negative this cycle would hit me so hard.  But here I am, smack dab in the middle of the ttc blues again.  It's like the last six months never even happened, we're back where we were before our success, and I'm becoming that horrible moody bitch again.

Ugh.  I seriously am disgusted with myself the last two days.  Feels like the only thing I can think about is the empty space in my ute where a babe should be growing.

Even last night's IF meeting at the RE's office didn't help.  Normally seeing those girls really picks me up.  They get it.  They've been there.  But, last night, it just didn't help.  I didn't feel connected to the group and I just wanted to get the hell out of there and climb in bed.

I need to pull myself up, stop whining, and get on with it already.  We'll try again next cycle.  If it doesn't take, we'll head back to the RE's office with guns ablazing. 

I can do this.  I've done it before.  I can keep doing it.

.....I don't have any other choice.