I think I had forgotten what it felt to be hopeful.
But I am. Hopeful, that is.
I know I shouldn't. I know if I get my hopes up about this cycle and we're not successful (which why should we be when we had a year's worth of cycles on our own and a big fat nothing to show for it?) it will be a bigger let down. The future I am dreaming about will only haunt me if it doesn't come to pass. Where is this hope coming from? Why should this cycle be any different than the ones before it?
But, I just can't help it.
It feels good to be back in the TTC game. It feels good to know my body can still ovulate on it's own. It feels good to know we have good timing. It feels good to know that maybe, just maybe, we will finally be successful.
So, for today anyway, I am hopeful.
......Please remind of this post in another week if this cycle is a bust......
I feel the same way (although we just had our loss and are a ways out from TTC again) I just for some reason feel very positive about what's to come and hope things will go perfectly for you also :)
ReplyDeleteI am so beyond happy to hear this. Seriously this is fantastic. I have so much hope for you<3
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