Thinking

1.  I'm trying to decide if I should take a step back from the full-on TTC process.  Not stopping TTC (we definitely want to start our family), but maybe taking a break from temping for a cycle.  I had been considering it as something that I might do in the future, but after talking to a TTC friend, I'm now considering it sooner rather than later.  I doubt I could give up OPKs, but after six of months of temping EVERYDAY, I'm a little over the whole thing.  I seem to be fairly regular with my 18-22 CD ovulation and, having charted CM, I definitely notice a pattern in that as well.  With the holidays and my birthday falling over this next cycle, it might be a good time to take a mini-break. 

2.  I'm starting to question my LP length.  I know it's normal for LPs to vary by a day or two, but I currently have a 5 day range.  My past LPs have been anywhere from 13-18 days.  If AF shows tomorrow, this cycle will be a 12 day LP.  All of my LPs are of a normal length, I just don't know if it's normal for one person to have such a wide swing.  I'm also a bit concerned by the amount of yucky brown I have as part of my pre-AF spotting.  Red I can handle (as it seems normal), this is just, without going into details.....gross.  Could also be I'm just over analyzing the whole thing and shouldn't give it another thought unless we hit the one year mark. 

3.  We're now in due dates through the school year.  Poop.

4.  My DH is amazing.  He really is.  He's been my rock through this whole process.  I'm not sure what I would do without him.  Although he doesn't always understand exactly what I'm going through, he listens, he asks questions, and he's the support I need when I feel like this process is going to eat me up and spit it out.  It will happen for us.  We just have to stay strong together.