Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Calm Before the Storm

So we're slowing entering my FW.  Today is CD 15 and, in the past, I've O'd anywhere from CD 18-22.  I'm running low on OPKs, so I probably won't start using them until CD 17.  The earliest I've ever gotten a +OPK is CD 18, so I should be okay. 

Honestly, I'm a little apprehensive.  I'm in the relaxing period of my cycle.  AF is well out the door and I'm just waiting for things to get started.  But a good waiting.  We're don't have the pressure of making sure our timing is good, or the long drawn out days of analyzing everything my body is doing post-O.  These are the good days.  There's nothing really to worry about and life is good.  I can take a mental step back from the TTC process and just be myself.  I'm actually a little hesitant to dive into the craziness this cycle.  After 7 months the bloom is definitely off the rose.  This process is hard and I'm just ready for those two lines.  Or... honestly, to know if there's a problem and start working towards fixing it (we still have a couple months before that, but sometimes I'd just rather know, either way). 

Obviously our "go" time is coming.  I guess I'm just happy to sit back and enjoy these next couple days.  There will be time enough to deal with crazy tomorrow.

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