I'm having trouble picking myself up today. Over the weekend I found out that two friends I made on TB are pregnant. While I'm so incredibly happy for them, it brings into focus that I'm not there yet. I gave myself Sunday afternoon to have a little pitty (aka wine) party. Unfortunately Sunday doesn't seem to be the end of it. Even today I'm still feeling a little blue.
Somehow this process has consumed me for the past four months. I need to start living my life again. My life before TTC. I know I shouldn't let this process become the focus of my everyday -- it can so quickly pull me down. I know I have plenty of amazing things in my life. I have nothing to be melancholy about. I can't be thinking of this constantly and feeling down that I'm not yet pregnant. BUT I AM. How do I flip the switch and go back to the way things used to be?
I miss the old me, and I'm not sure how to get her back.
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