Teacher's Decisions

I am thinking of making a change at school. 

I'd still be at my school, still in the same grade level, but there's an opportunity to pilot a two man team.   On this team I'd be teaching math and science, and the other teacher would be teaching social studies/language arts (I'm currently on a six man team).  This move would mean less kids I teach, but I would have to pick up teaching science in addition to math.  I would also have to move my room (no small feat in itself) and move to a room that is without a window (actually not a uncommon occurrence in my building). 

Yesterday, I told my principal I would be okay with that decision (there are other teachers that have to agree to other changes before mine would be official) but last night I was second guessing myself.  Did I want to take on two tested subject areas?  One of which I have never taught?  Do I want to move my room?  Leave my team, which works well together?  Move to a different floor and into a room I really didn't want?  All of that was also wound up with the hope that I'll be out part of next school year for maternity leave.  I don't want to base my decision on that until if/when we have cause for it, but I worried it would be a bad decision to start a new teaching position and then up and leave for several months.  

So, I thought about it.  A LOT.  Way long into the night.  Tossing and turning, anxious thoughts filling my mind, all night long.  Unfortunately it's just what I do.

But now that I've chewed on it for a day, I'm feeling better about the decision to move forward (assuming all the other pieces fall into place).  I also talked to my assistant principal (she was a teacher in my building before becoming the AP this year, so I knew her before) about my concerns. She assured me that they (the admin) aren't making any final decisions yet.  She also said that I will definitely be consulted again before they do. I also told her about how we're pursuing treatments (she knows about my pregnancy and loss) and I was worried about being out part of next year. She assured me that I have to live my life and not to worry about if/when I'll be out, no matter what team I'm teaching on.  We also talked about other options that could offer the two man team, but keep me in my current classroom.

So, I guess the long and the short of it is, nothing is settled yet.  But, I'm feeling optimistic about new opportunities.  Guess we'll see what the coming days bring.