Today I am pissed off.
I'm mad at myself for miscarrying. I'm mad at other people for getting pregnant. I'm mad at other people for staying pregnant. I'm mad at friends who keep talking about their pregnancies. I'm mad at that I don't get to celebrate those pregnancy milestones (I should be 16w2d, in case you were wondering). I'm mad at bumps. I'm mad at babies. I'm mad the only thing people can tell me is, "I'm so sorry". I'm mad at my stupid body for not having a period yet. I'm mad that I have to do this whole damn thing ALL OVER AGAIN. I'm mad I have to go about my life as if nothing happened. I'm mad that I think about our lost baby all day long. I'm mad I have to take my temp again. I'm mad I'll have to pee in cups again. I'm mad other people get to be happy when I'm sad. I'm mad at people for telling me I will get pregnant again. I'm tired of being reminded of this horrible thing all the time.
I'm mad, I'm mad, I'm mad, I'm mad.
I know it will pass. I know parts of what I'm feeling is illogical. But today I'm just seriously pissed.
It's not illogical...it's just how you feel! I know what it is to feel angry and I am right there with you! It sucks...plain and simple! I hope you feel better soon!
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ReplyDeleteLoss is illogical. It's not fair that you or anyone else has to go through this. I hope that the days start getting better for you. *Hugs*
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