Putting Off Heartache

I thought about testing this morning.  I didn't.

I'm not ready for the let down of another failed cycle.  I'm not ready to see a stark white test.  Again.  I just need to hold onto this possibility of good for a few more days. 

So, I'm putting it off.  At least through the weekend.  And until my H can be here with me to help prop me up if it's another "no" this cycle.  I have felt great about our chances this cycle.  Better and more optimistic than I have since our loss.  We had a plan.  The plan went off without a hitch (if you don't count the hit to our bank account).  Now I just need this cycle to go out with a bang.  Or, more specifically, a second line on that dern little test.

Only time will tell.